Part 2 The Breaking Point It all came crashing down on an unsuspecting Thursday. Lucas had stayed up far too late the night before, tossing and turning in his crib, exhausted and too over- stimulated to sleep. Then he woke up too early (6am). Sleep begets sleep. But I was still in a good mood […]
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Forgive yourself, Mama. Here’s to another try.
Part 1 In my last update on our autism journey, I wrote about how excited we were to start an estimated 15-20 hours a week of in home ABA therapy. I left the doctor’s office with a long list of therapy options to start researching and calling. It was a bit daunting to look at […]
A Provisional Autism Diagnosis
Anyone who knew me when I was pregnant can tell you that I was an anxious mess from the second I saw those two pink lines. I woke up nightly during my first trimester with vivid stillbirth dreams, and I would wake up crying after having created the worst possible scenario in my head. By […]
An update after seeing a developmental specialist
After several failed titles for this post, I settled on something quite unimaginative. Last week, we went to see a developmental specialist regarding Lucas’ speech delay. It has been almost two months since our pediatrician told us that he was worried about Lucas’ lack of speech (to read all about that day, see this post) […]
Processing the longest day
I smell like vomit and I am too tired to do anything about it. Lucas had his 18 month Well Baby check up with his new pediatrician bright and early this morning. I was a little nervous about being in a new place so I made Dayna map out my trek with me last […]
A good day for a baptism.
As a baby, I was baptized then raised in the Lutheran church. I spent Sundays in Sunday school, learning the stories and creating my own narrative of Jesus. Then in later years, I would take my turn as a Sunday school teacher, passing along the stories, and teaching the amazing grace that I had come […]
Taking Stock: has it really been four months?
In the midst of all the mom- guilt, self- doubt, feelings of inadequacy, worry, and sleep deprivation, I wanted to share a redeeming moment that happened in the middle our son’s third month. A breastfeeding story. I had errands to run in North Tacoma and so I packed up the boy, grabbed our diaper […]
Lucas’ Birth Story
In honor of baby boy turning one month old, I wanted to share his birth story. It is by far the most personal post I have ever written, but I really wanted to do it. The reason being: I am SUPER PROUD. I’m proud of my wife, my baby, and of course myself. I knew […]
My Favorite Room
Preparing the nursery for baby’s arrival was such a sweet distraction during pregnancy. We agreed (easily) that the theme would be a tasteful Harry Potter one, and it came together so seamlessly. We found pieces here and there that we fell in love with or had collected over the years. Now, it is our favorite room […]