Anyone who knew me when I was pregnant can tell you that I was an anxious mess from the second I saw those two pink lines. I woke up nightly during my first trimester with vivid stillbirth dreams, and I would wake up crying after having created the worst possible scenario in my head. By […]
Category: Family
An update after seeing a developmental specialist
After several failed titles for this post, I settled on something quite unimaginative. Last week, we went to see a developmental specialist regarding Lucas’ speech delay. It has been almost two months since our pediatrician told us that he was worried about Lucas’ lack of speech (to read all about that day, see this post) […]
Processing the longest day
I smell like vomit and I am too tired to do anything about it. Lucas had his 18 month Well Baby check up with his new pediatrician bright and early this morning. I was a little nervous about being in a new place so I made Dayna map out my trek with me last […]
Pride Month 2018
This year’s Pride marks my 10 year anniversary of coming out. Ten years ago, I never could have imagined my life as it is now. I didn’t know if I’d get married. Children seemed so out of my realm of possibilities. It’s rare that I really share some of these details, but I thought that […]
A dreary day
Well. The day that our family has been dreading for months is finally here. We sent Dayna off to South Carolina at 2:30am this morning. She will be gone for the next two months while she completes drill sergeant school. I don’t think either of us has stopped crying all morning. In fact I made […]
The best way over is through
To all my friends and family who have taken the time to read my story, thank you. I know that these posts haven’t been short (or very uplifting). But while I find myself in a particularly delicate season of life, it has been a comfort to know that I have updated so many that I […]
In the thick of it
What you are about to read is part two of my postpartum depression update. I had some feedback from readers of my last post, that they were nervous to read part two. While I acknowledge that I did end with a rather abrupt cliff hanger, part two will dive into some of the tougher stuff. […]
Nobody panic, just dealing with some postpartum depression over here.
I am in the thick of some postpartum depression. I have wanted to write about this so many times. I’ve journaled a little of it and thought of posting a quick social media update. But it felt so self-serving, self-indulgent, and overall self-centered. Every time I go to write something down, I cringe at the […]
A good day for a baptism.
As a baby, I was baptized then raised in the Lutheran church. I spent Sundays in Sunday school, learning the stories and creating my own narrative of Jesus. Then in later years, I would take my turn as a Sunday school teacher, passing along the stories, and teaching the amazing grace that I had come […]
Taking Stock: has it really been four months?
In the midst of all the mom- guilt, self- doubt, feelings of inadequacy, worry, and sleep deprivation, I wanted to share a redeeming moment that happened in the middle our son’s third month. A breastfeeding story. I had errands to run in North Tacoma and so I packed up the boy, grabbed our diaper […]